Catalyst
It has been super rough between my last post and this one... trigger warning again. This post speaks about suicidal ideation. So practice self care and decide if reading this post is right for you. If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts please CALL 988 or seek help. As always, I have links to the left. I went through a week or two where I was super suicidal. I cried myself to sleep for 2 weeks straight. It was super scary how easy ending everything seemed. Just one little choice, then go to sleep and wait for death. But again, even in my darkest hour I found hope in my heart that better times were a possibility, so I hung in there for that chance. I am ok now and think I made it through the worst of it. I have had a lot of insights that I think helped me out of the darkness and I am feeling even better than my old chipper self! I have been wondering why this sudden change in me. I am doing things in public and speaking about things openly th...