DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL
So don't let the title deceive you, This post is full of joy and growth. But part of that came from a rough 30 min or so at 2am one night during a reflective sacrament... So to start off, my 2nd surgery got moved up! Instead of November 15th, it is now August 12th (TOMORROW AT 7:30 AM!) This is the first big irreversible thing in my transition. But i have been at peace and very excited about it. Today my excitement drops to 95% occasionally as nerves set in. But Im still mostly at 100% excitement! The only 3 concerns I have had are; one of convenience when camping or at a gross toilet. Second is what parts any future partner may have and how i may want to interact with those parts. And the very smallest concern is that of future me wanting to de-transition. All are considerations that I have held close and believe the reward outweighs the risks and concerns. In the past when I interacted with my partners parts, I usually imagined our parts were switched during the process. And I ve...