2 YEARS ON HRT!

 Ok... so technically september was my 2 year marker. But I had other news I wanted to talk about in september. Then october kinda got away from me. My new body is still so amazing and getting better every day!  It may seem odd, but everything feels natural, normal and as though it has always been this way. But occasionally I will be struck with unbelievable joy when I stop and think about it! 

I can hardly believe I am already 2 years on HRT! Time really flys. And I have had so many wonderful changes in my life in that relatively short period of time. I never in a million years imagined things would be so good for me, obviously I hoped so. But was entering the realm of the unknown and giving life one last chance. So what was there to loose? And I did loose a lot. I lost a brother, and most of my male friends and my marriage of 18 years. I lost my muscle mass and a few other physical characteristics. But I have been able to divelop closer relationships with most of my female friends, and make new friends. I have become the person I always saw myself as emotionally and been able to start healing relationships with my kids I didnt even realize were bad. 

Is it still rough at times? yes. Someimes I feel sad for my lost girlhood, my motherhood, my firty 20s and my dirty 30s. I grieve that my voice takes so much work to be an aproximation of a cis womans voice. And a few more things sprinkled in there. But these moments are not frequent and more easily passed through.

In other news, I bought my x out of our home so it is all mine now. And at the time I'm typing this she is closing on a place of her own. I am excited and nervous about this change. It is bitter sweet to have the person who i have shared more than half of my life with in a seperate home. But I am soooo super excited to be the one doing the decorating this time!

This posts pic is ai generated.... dont @ me with the ethics.... I feel it was a bit generous with the feminine features of current me. But it is me pre and post transition taken from actual pics of me. People who I show that didn't know me before ask who the guy I'm with is... ☺







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