Telling the kids and more

At first my wife did not want the kids to know till she had time to process things more. She did however almost tell our eldest a few times and agreed I could tell her after a couple weeks. My eldest is the incredible Ally at school I mentioned in an earlier post. She seemed un phased by it and just asked my pronouns and thanked me for telling her. 

My next kid  noticed the tattoo and asked if it was a nonbinary tattoo. I told them It wasn't and changed the subject. Then I excused myself and  told my wife the new development. She did not seem happy, but agreed it was probably time for the next kid to know. So that evening I brought up the tattoo again and told them it is for  gender dysphoria and I am gender fluid. they also thanked me and asked my pronouns.

My wife has been handling this with grace and love and anger and sorrow and all the things. She is having a hard time and cries a lot. My youngest  noticed this and keeps asking her what is wrong. Yesterday my wife told her that sometimes I want to be a woman. Her initial response to that was tears. But as the day progressed she kept telling me she loves me and hugging me. At one point she came to me and thanked me for being brave and telling her.

My son does not know as of the day this was posted. We want to hold off till he is in high school if we can. 

In other news, my mom figured out how to access my blog and read it. She  had no clue about my gender dysphoria till I came out and enjoyed reading all the experiences I shared my perspective on. We had a fun chat about other situations she felt she should have picked up on it with, but didn't. One situation she brought up  was one day when I asked her why God would make someone a certain way and then punish them for it. She said she didn't know if God made them that way or not. and gave an example of how it could have been man made with all the things they put in our food. She then said it could even be something they put in baby formula for all we know. Then I yelled at her and said "well it is a good thing you breast fed me then!" and stormed off. 😆 

She also shed light on her perspective on the therapy. Apparently I was not removed because the therapist told me to masterbate. Therapy initially started for me because I have OCD and had anger issues. during the course of therapy, my sleeping habits were discovered and the focus of the therapy shifted at the end. But the therapist told my mom not to worry. I wasnt gay and sometimes hormonal teenagers just dont know what to do with their pent up sex drive and my behavior was not totally irregular. He said I had the tools I needed to deal with my OCD and Anger so we were done with therapy. She didnt even remember the conversation where I said he told me to just masterbate.  I  find it fascinating to see others perspectives and how they can change based on what is the focus of their inner monologue.